Anyway, I had to go to this "seminar". The lady in charge said she knew our first question would be "Why do I have to do this?" Ya think? This program is for people who:
- had been at their jobs for a long period of time (ok, 12 years, that's a good stretch)
- may not have the skills to go to a new job (the software I used was specific to the industry so this applies also)
- will probably max out their unemployment benefits before finding a new job (great)
Boy I feel confident now! This program offers job training and educational grants for careers that are in demand.
Not to be obnoxious but, I am really good at what I do. Really. The numbers and I get along. But...I am soooo bored with it. Now the question is, what do I want to be when I grow up? Crap, I thought I answered that already.
I was talking with a lawyer friend of mine today and she told me court reporting is in demand right now. I check out the unemployment web site. Court reporting is on the in demand list! There is a school about 30 miles from here! Unemployment will give a maximum grant of $4000! Court reporting school is $24,000!
Yeah, no go. No way in hell can we afford that right now. I have a kid going to college in a year.
The Big Guy says don't sweat it. Stay home, the kids need you, we can do it, blah blah blah. I know we can do it, we are pretty frugal people.
The problem is in my mind.
My mind wants to work. My mind finds satisfaction in getting paid for work. My mind needs to alter it's thinking. I will never find a job like my old one. I worked part time and made full time money. Nobody on God's green earth is going to give me what I was getting. I know being home and raising the kids is important. But my mother drummed into my sister and I to never rely on anyone else (specifically, a man and no, my parents are NOT divorced) to make the money. After years of indoctrination it is hard to counter that. It seems that every conversation I have had with the Big Guy the last few weeks has been him trying to convince me that staying home is a good thing. He's a peach, he really is.
I have no idea what the point of this post is. I thought I did when I started but not any more. That's reflective of my life right now so I guess it makes a weird kind of sense.